So, as you know, I have gotten myself a girlfriend.
We've been going out for over a month, and things are good. Or so I thought. We're no longer a couple as of tonight. And to be honest, I'm a little pissed about the timing of the breakup. I haven't been sleeping well of late, and last night was no different. I didn't fall asleep till 6, and Becky knows this, so when I drive her home tonight, she tells me she knows it's a bad time, but we need to talk. She said she felt that lately I was more of a friend to her. And damn it, I'm happy she spoke up. But she could have waited 1 day, 1 fucking day to tell me. I'm not generally an angry person, nor do I get upset often. But to be honest, with lack of sleep, and school work pressing down on me, I'm more than entitled to re-act the way I'm acting. And I KNOW I'm over reacting. I know that, but I can't help it. I was truly happy for the first time in a long time. And I'm sure if she had waited that 12 hour period to talk to me, I'd be able to manage it better, but well, no such luck.
I guess when it comes down to it, I'm not really angry at Becky. Let's face, she was, and is out of my league. I'm a nice guy and all that, but when it comes to relationships, I'm extremely inexperienced. I guess when it comes down to it, I'm angry at myself. I truly believed I had the opportunity to be have 1 relationship, and make it last. That shit doesn't happen in real life man! I got so full of relationship bliss, I didn't even begin to think it could end. And I'm angry at that. Relationships come and go, but for my very first relationship, I honestly hoped this one would last. I really like Becky, and still do despite her shitty-ass timing for a breakup, but I have to wake up and smell the coffee, I'm in college, this shit is going to happen.
I'm in for a long night, and I'm hoping that I will be able to fall asleep. But I intend to speak to Becky a little more on the subject when I see her tomorrow.
Good night people, hope things are going well for you.
~Pi
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Friday, October 9, 2009
College Update
Ladies and Gents, it's freakin' turkey day this weekend!
Anyhow, onto business.
School is going really well, I'm doing well in all my classes. Although sometimes the work can be intense, I've managed to do really well. My friends are all awesome, Guido, Tara, Kyle, and Becky are the names of my closest friends.
Work, at Subway, is shitty. Last weekend when I closed, I apparently forgot to do something, and so the ex-manager, who opened the following morning, wanted me to be written up for it. Fortunately the current manager is really cool, and was like, screw you, you're not the manager anymore, I am, and it's my decision. Not only that, but I've been sick all week, and have gotten progressively worse. Last night I worked, and I felt pretty crappy the whole time. My manager, with whom I was working with, told me that if I was feeling worse today, to call in and he'd find someone to cover me. I felt even worse today, probably from lack of sleep, the high fever, and the general lack of energy that comes with being sick. So, I called in, and the ex-manager answers, and I ask her to talk to the manager. He's busy at the moment, and asks if she can help me. I tell her my situation, and she threathens to fire me! Her exact words were 'Will, you're still in your first 3 months, and you've taken a lot of time off (Including today, I've taken off 3 days, all for legit reasons), how badly do you want this job? I was so upset, you have no idea. I told her I needed this job, and asked again if I could speak to the manager. She finally passes him over to me, after telling me that she would talk to him about she and I talked about. When I talked to the manager, he asked how bad I was, and if there was any way I could make it in. I said no, I wasn't even fit to drive. That's how bad I was. He ended up taking my shift, and I slept all day after class, and then drove home, because I was feeling better. So yeah, shitty week at work. Real shitty.
But despite all the load of crap, today is a really good day. The girl I like at school, one of my closest friends, Becky, admitted to me that she liked me, a lot. And I replied that I too like her a lot, after discussing it, we have decided to date. This has made my week, the last 'relationship' I was in, if you can call it that, involved someone who was emotionally unstable, and although very kind and caring, was far too demanding. I'm so happy that I found someone who likes me, who doesn't have emotional instability. It's such a relief, I can't tell you.
Anyhow, that's it for today, I hope you all enjoy your turkey days, although some of you might be in the states, and don't celebrate it for a while.
Cheers,
~Pi
Anyhow, onto business.
School is going really well, I'm doing well in all my classes. Although sometimes the work can be intense, I've managed to do really well. My friends are all awesome, Guido, Tara, Kyle, and Becky are the names of my closest friends.
Work, at Subway, is shitty. Last weekend when I closed, I apparently forgot to do something, and so the ex-manager, who opened the following morning, wanted me to be written up for it. Fortunately the current manager is really cool, and was like, screw you, you're not the manager anymore, I am, and it's my decision. Not only that, but I've been sick all week, and have gotten progressively worse. Last night I worked, and I felt pretty crappy the whole time. My manager, with whom I was working with, told me that if I was feeling worse today, to call in and he'd find someone to cover me. I felt even worse today, probably from lack of sleep, the high fever, and the general lack of energy that comes with being sick. So, I called in, and the ex-manager answers, and I ask her to talk to the manager. He's busy at the moment, and asks if she can help me. I tell her my situation, and she threathens to fire me! Her exact words were 'Will, you're still in your first 3 months, and you've taken a lot of time off (Including today, I've taken off 3 days, all for legit reasons), how badly do you want this job? I was so upset, you have no idea. I told her I needed this job, and asked again if I could speak to the manager. She finally passes him over to me, after telling me that she would talk to him about she and I talked about. When I talked to the manager, he asked how bad I was, and if there was any way I could make it in. I said no, I wasn't even fit to drive. That's how bad I was. He ended up taking my shift, and I slept all day after class, and then drove home, because I was feeling better. So yeah, shitty week at work. Real shitty.
But despite all the load of crap, today is a really good day. The girl I like at school, one of my closest friends, Becky, admitted to me that she liked me, a lot. And I replied that I too like her a lot, after discussing it, we have decided to date. This has made my week, the last 'relationship' I was in, if you can call it that, involved someone who was emotionally unstable, and although very kind and caring, was far too demanding. I'm so happy that I found someone who likes me, who doesn't have emotional instability. It's such a relief, I can't tell you.
Anyhow, that's it for today, I hope you all enjoy your turkey days, although some of you might be in the states, and don't celebrate it for a while.
Cheers,
~Pi
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Two Lost Souls
Well Lady and gent!
Things at school are really kicking up, and I'm loving it. But that's not my reason for posting tonight.
It is the 22nd/23rd of September, and I just got back from a movie with a girl I really like. She and I are in the same course, share the same music interests, as well as tv shows. She's attractive, funny, and smart, and damnit, fun to hang around with.
So tonight was a pretty eventful night, I asked her if she wanted to go to the movies with me last week, not thinking she would think it to be a date, but as my friends (including her) and I gathered at East Side Marios tonight for dinner, I had to leave the table to find our 4th friend to lead him to the table. While I was gone (I was later informed of this), my good friend Jordan, who is a girl, asked this girl that I like, if she thought of tonight as a date. To my suprise, she said kinda.
Like, this is awesome. I've known the girl 2 weeks, and apparently we went on a mini-date. Wooh! I'm ecstatic right now! For once in my life, a girl who's totally worth going after is interested in me. College is awesome!
So, I ended up going to the movie with her, and we had a great time, I found out we both have the same favorite song, Wish You Were Here by Pink Floyd, which is really cool. I drove her home, and we talked indy music the whole way, it was really neat. As I pulled onto the road where she lives, she told me about who live in what house, and how she knew them, and when I finally am pulling up into her driveway, she's telling me a story of her childhood; It's so rare for someone I like to open up to me like that, I can really see this becoming a relationship, and hope for the best.
With that said, I hope you all have great success, and wish me luck in my endeavors.
~Pi
Things at school are really kicking up, and I'm loving it. But that's not my reason for posting tonight.
It is the 22nd/23rd of September, and I just got back from a movie with a girl I really like. She and I are in the same course, share the same music interests, as well as tv shows. She's attractive, funny, and smart, and damnit, fun to hang around with.
So tonight was a pretty eventful night, I asked her if she wanted to go to the movies with me last week, not thinking she would think it to be a date, but as my friends (including her) and I gathered at East Side Marios tonight for dinner, I had to leave the table to find our 4th friend to lead him to the table. While I was gone (I was later informed of this), my good friend Jordan, who is a girl, asked this girl that I like, if she thought of tonight as a date. To my suprise, she said kinda.
Like, this is awesome. I've known the girl 2 weeks, and apparently we went on a mini-date. Wooh! I'm ecstatic right now! For once in my life, a girl who's totally worth going after is interested in me. College is awesome!
So, I ended up going to the movie with her, and we had a great time, I found out we both have the same favorite song, Wish You Were Here by Pink Floyd, which is really cool. I drove her home, and we talked indy music the whole way, it was really neat. As I pulled onto the road where she lives, she told me about who live in what house, and how she knew them, and when I finally am pulling up into her driveway, she's telling me a story of her childhood; It's so rare for someone I like to open up to me like that, I can really see this becoming a relationship, and hope for the best.
With that said, I hope you all have great success, and wish me luck in my endeavors.
~Pi
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
College, Life!
Well everyone, it's time to do what I set out to do, attend college and make something of myself.
I kept telling myself over the years that once I did get into college, I would do my up most best to update and upkeep a blog. Seeing as how I have a fully functional one already up and running, I decided to log back onto good old blogspot, and update this ancient website of mine.
So, you might be wondering: Will? What the hell are you doing? Your blog is no longer functional, how will you draw attention to your site?
Well, to be honest, you probably aren't wondering that, but I am! So here's the deal. I'm in school for tv and new media production (yay me!), and because of this I will literally be making HOURS of footage, constantly, as if it were my job. And let's face it, this is my job.
So, with that in mind, and a small degree of luck and determination, I will soon be filming things at school, and attempting to obtain and upload the material to my blogger.
Hope all 2 of my readers are doing well,
~Pi
I kept telling myself over the years that once I did get into college, I would do my up most best to update and upkeep a blog. Seeing as how I have a fully functional one already up and running, I decided to log back onto good old blogspot, and update this ancient website of mine.
So, you might be wondering: Will? What the hell are you doing? Your blog is no longer functional, how will you draw attention to your site?
Well, to be honest, you probably aren't wondering that, but I am! So here's the deal. I'm in school for tv and new media production (yay me!), and because of this I will literally be making HOURS of footage, constantly, as if it were my job. And let's face it, this is my job.
So, with that in mind, and a small degree of luck and determination, I will soon be filming things at school, and attempting to obtain and upload the material to my blogger.
Hope all 2 of my readers are doing well,
~Pi
Friday, July 24, 2009
Some crazy good tunes.
Alright, so my good man Adam Laporte has always been a big influence on music tastes. He has, for the past decade of my life, shown me interesting and new bands, some are hit and miss, but generally all are really solid. Maylene And The Sons of Disaster is one such band.
With several members from the Christian metal band we call Underoath, this band is not new when it comes to this genre of music. Boasting a Southern Metalcore feel, MASTOD is easily of the best bands I have heard. Ever.
Here's a link to their new video, sorry I can't inbed.
Step Up (I'm On It)
With several members from the Christian metal band we call Underoath, this band is not new when it comes to this genre of music. Boasting a Southern Metalcore feel, MASTOD is easily of the best bands I have heard. Ever.
Here's a link to their new video, sorry I can't inbed.
Step Up (I'm On It)
Monday, March 2, 2009
Vent
So, the fact of the matter is I'm in a pretty bad mood.
I actually bothered to come onto my blog for the first time in forever, so as to prevent myself from blowing up.
I started full time work at Subway this week, and it's going well, but my loathing of people in general has increased, as has my inability to sleep.
You see ladies and gentleman of the intrawebs, I'm going to college in the fall, and need to pick one of the offers I got. I'm quite happy about my acceptance, but the fact of the matter is, I'm a little scared about this whole thing; With my sheltered upbringing, and my procrastinating nature, I find it really hard to do anything I need to, except go to work. And depending on where I go to college, I'm either going to be living with family, living with strangers, or living on my own. This scares me, I don't think I have the ability to take care of myself fully at this point in time, but the college with the best course has accepted me, and I'm really tempted to take it. I don't want to take the ones close to home because I am sick and tired of all the problems in my family. I am sick of having to deal with unwanted stress, which aggravates me, and denies me sleep.
Because of all that, I'm confused and scared about what to do. A very dear and close friend of mine tried to help me through it, and it's partially because of him I'm writing this, without the help of my friend, I doubt I would have come to the conclusion that I need to stop letting other people take advantage of me; I'm always putting others in front of me, and let them take advantage of me, but no more, ladies and gentleman, no more.
I've promised to myself that I will not stand by and let life suck me dry. From now on, I live for myself, and will only on occasion choose to let people use me, and even then, only when I choose.
My whole reason of this post is to vent, and to avoid doing something I will regret, but in doing so, I've strengthened my resolve, and have made my decision public.
To finish this night off, I want to thank that very close friend of mine for really being harsh with me the other night, and showing me that I'm not a fuck up, and don't give myself enough credit.
So, thank you Dan.
I actually bothered to come onto my blog for the first time in forever, so as to prevent myself from blowing up.
I started full time work at Subway this week, and it's going well, but my loathing of people in general has increased, as has my inability to sleep.
You see ladies and gentleman of the intrawebs, I'm going to college in the fall, and need to pick one of the offers I got. I'm quite happy about my acceptance, but the fact of the matter is, I'm a little scared about this whole thing; With my sheltered upbringing, and my procrastinating nature, I find it really hard to do anything I need to, except go to work. And depending on where I go to college, I'm either going to be living with family, living with strangers, or living on my own. This scares me, I don't think I have the ability to take care of myself fully at this point in time, but the college with the best course has accepted me, and I'm really tempted to take it. I don't want to take the ones close to home because I am sick and tired of all the problems in my family. I am sick of having to deal with unwanted stress, which aggravates me, and denies me sleep.
Because of all that, I'm confused and scared about what to do. A very dear and close friend of mine tried to help me through it, and it's partially because of him I'm writing this, without the help of my friend, I doubt I would have come to the conclusion that I need to stop letting other people take advantage of me; I'm always putting others in front of me, and let them take advantage of me, but no more, ladies and gentleman, no more.
I've promised to myself that I will not stand by and let life suck me dry. From now on, I live for myself, and will only on occasion choose to let people use me, and even then, only when I choose.
My whole reason of this post is to vent, and to avoid doing something I will regret, but in doing so, I've strengthened my resolve, and have made my decision public.
To finish this night off, I want to thank that very close friend of mine for really being harsh with me the other night, and showing me that I'm not a fuck up, and don't give myself enough credit.
So, thank you Dan.
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